I’m (19F by the way, not like 50) a bad texter. I can be not dry when I want to be, but usually I’m just not up for texting. I really don’t engage with my friends. (I’m asocial).
I don’t participate in their activities. I don’t really ask them how they are, or what their interests are. I don’t even engage in deep discussion with them unless I’m up for it.
When my friend sends a video that reminded her of me or that she finds funny, I don’t click it and just ignore it.
Maybe my friends are growing apart and they text me less because of this, but I’m kind of okay with that because I know they will be there for me when I need it and because I’m genuinely just tired/bored most of the time.
One time, my friend asked me if I’d like to spend time with her, and I just point-blank said “No”. IDK if that’s rude just because I’m being honest and also because it’s not personal, I don’t want to engage with anyone.
Yeah, sounds like you might have depression. That might sound scary now, like “uuh, depression, i don’t want to have a grave sickness”, but actually IIRC, like 20% of teenagers nowadays have depression. So it’s pretty normal.
Contrary to what the stereotypes might say, depression does not mean that you’re “sad” all the time (at least for most people), it rather means that you’re tired or without emotion most of the time.
I know the feeling of not wanting to spend time with other people because they might seem “boring”. But, as you’ve mentioned in another post (iirc), many of your friends seem to be “weirdos” (a.k.a. neurodivergent), so they might actually be interesting people. Either give them a try, or become yourself the interesting person that you would want to interact with, or wait until you one day meet somebody that you’re willing to spend more time with.