Thank you for your kind words, my friend 🤗

You’re definitely right that I was depressed at some point. There are months of 2024 that I don’t have any recollection of. Those months scared my boyfriend more than after I snapped and I was full of negative emotions. At least by then, I was present and feeling things. During the blackout months I just sat in the same corner and stared into space when I didn’t work or sleep. Almost like I was a tool that was left in a corner when it wasn’t being used.

I’m very lucky I have my boyfriend. You’re completely correct that he’s a good partner. He is fantastic and one of the best human beings I have ever known.

I do think I’m better nowadays. We moved to a bigger and better place recently and it’s so nice to finally have a home and not just be in some temporary location while life tosses you around. I think that within the next year or so, I’ll be back to myself and be more creative again. It’s already happening a little bit even though I still don’t have any energy to enjoy my passion. I feel inspired and that’s a massive step compared to where I was only a few months ago.

I’m also sorry to hear that you have struggled with depression, my friend. And a bad case by the sounds of it. And your description of anti depressants is very relatable. I was on some of those way back in my youth when I was struggling way more than I am now, so I know how much they can just iron you out for better and for worse. I hope you have good people in your life too, who have your back. I’m also genuinely happy to read about how passionate you are about your job/hobby. That’s the kind of life I wish every person was blessed enough to get to experience, because man, when things are good, it’s just the most enjoyable and fulfilling way to live. ❤️ I wish you nothing but the best!

Sometimes it’s not the fact that you make your passion your job, that kills the spark. It can be a series of very unfortunate events happening in quick succession that dims what makes life so much fun.

For me it was a culmination of changes at my job that saddled me with too much work and the fact that several people in my personal life went through big crises all within the same period of time.

I worked close to a 100 hours a week with barely any breaks. No downtime, no weekends. No vacations. What little time I did have was spent being a therapist or mediator for people in my life who were very unhappy.

I was given promises at work that kept my spirits up, but when it was time for them to be kept, I was let down. Not only that, within the same week we lost all our clients due to budget cuts because inflation kicked everybody’s asses.

And then I snapped. I’m lucky I have an amazing and caring boyfriend because that shit could have developed into a serious mental health crisis. It had just been a full year of trying to stay positive and being let down over and over and over and over while everybody I cared about were suffering.

Things kept being fucked for another year, but it felt less extreme because the workload was more normal by then, but also because we made a lot of good changes at home. We moved into a place that was better for us. That helped a lot.

I’m still not doing my passions at home despite having set up an entire room for it. I know it will come back at some point. When I’m ready. I try to treat my creativity like it’s a wild animal. You have to let it come to you and you can’t chase it.

I think I will be like you again sometime soon. I used to be until 2024, when it all happened. I have also gone through much worse crises before this one where my passion went away for a while. This too shall pass, as they say.

The Julekalender

This is a Danish advent calendar that was released in the early 90s and making fun of different Danish dialects and especially making fun of Danes who were splicing more and more English words into their Danish vocabulary at the time.

The story is basically about three gnomes or nisser, who crash their airplane in Jutland, Denmark and they are stranded there until they fix the plane. They have to get back home because their old papa is dying and needs to read from a very special book to get better. This book is wanted by a copenhagener stereotype by the name of Benny who turns into a goofy vampire when he drinks alcohol. He’s stuck with a couple of jutlandic farmers who are completely oblivious about everything going on.

I was 2 years old when this show first aired on TV and I remember we were watching it together as a family when Benny turned into the goofy vampire and I started screaming. The scariest part was the fact that my family was laughing at the TV. I guess the adult version of that would be to witness a horrific car crash or a violent crime and everybody around you is just laughing. It was such a surreal and terrifying experience and I was way too little to understand the context of why this scene was so funny and why my family was laughing. All I knew was that I had seen danger and evil and that those who were supposed to protect me weren’t reacting the right way and that made it so much worse.

I had to sleep with the lights on for a long time after that because I was so scared the goofy vampire would come and hiss at me and kill me in the dark.

This is the exact scene that sent me into a fit of fear all those years ago:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0D1Cnf5OFdc

And yes, I probably shouldn’t be able to remember stuff like this from the age of 2, but I have several verified memories from my earliest childhood that I can’t really explain. I guess the trade-off is that my short term memory is shit and I cannot remember verbal instructions without visual aid.

The Julekalender is great, but it is impossible for non-Danes to fully appreciate since it’s so specifically making fun of Danish language and the differnet stereotypes attached to differnet dialects.

Yeah. I just remember whenever their show was on when I was a kid, I just didn’t find them funny at all. It’s not that their jokes offended me or anything. I was too young to care about what was and what wasn’t tasteless. I just didn’t think they were funny. I thought they were extremely lame.

On the other hand, I remember that I did enjoy Linie 3 and had a casette tape with various live performances with Dirch Passer whom I considered a comedic genius as a kid. Still think Dirch is great, but I have no idea whether or not Linie 3 holds up. I remember enjoying their dynamic and how they kinda represented the superego, the ego and the id when they were performing.

Probably that Ørkenens Sønner was never funny.

It’s the fact that sheep always look so happy and content that always makes me melt.

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You’re welcome! I’m legit so jealous xD

Have a lovely day, friend.

Haha, I love it xD

Toothless was designed by Chris Sanders who made Lilo and Stitch. He more or less reused Stitch’s design and mixed it with big cat proportions when he did toothless. It’s kinda funny/cool once you realize the Stitch influence. Even some of toothless’ behavior is lifted from Stitch.

You have very pretty handwriting.

Ai seem to be the perfect propaganda tool to make people believe whatever you want them to believe.

In the end, green energy will win. It’s already happening even though, right now, the black energy lovers are doing everything to pull the brakes on green energy. They will not be able to hold on to their power forever and many countries are already investing heavily in green energy. It’s only a matter of time.

I would have probably never thought that 16 years after it’s release, A Serbian Film would be an accidentally good allegory for American tech and social media platforms.

There will be people whose entire lives have been archived on Facebook. From mom peeing on a stick till they die. Because even if they don’t sign up for Facebook, they will know people who use it and those people will post pictures, video clips and anecdotes about them without even asking. So yeah, some people’s entire life history will be owned by Facebook.

That’s one reason why I fucking never posted pics of any of my nieces and nephews while I still had a profile on that hellsite.

Ah, thanks for the clarification. So it was only half a hallucination I had there, lol.

The joke could also be on the wife depending on the perspective. Kinda in the Mrs Hyacinth kind of way. We don’t laugh at Richard for being oppressed and abused by his wife. We laugh at her for being such an insufferable dummy. That’s the type of joke I got out of this birthday picture. A Mrs Hyacinth joke.

Honestly, I don’t think it is that deep. I think you’re hurting, which is valid, but you’re projecting your own hurt onto one photo and judging an entire relationship based off of one joke-pic. If we knew more about their relationship dynamic and what they are like as people, we may be better equipped to judge whether or not this joke is made by two people who thinks it’s funny or made by one party to humiliate the other. We literally don’t know.

Female cats are like that. When I met my boyfriend I had two female cats and the first time he stayed over at my place, they were the two biggest harlots, basically pissing all over girl code and hanging on him like he was a tall glass of water in a desert. Even meowing loudly whenever he went to the bathroom. Zero loyalty.

And then a few years ago my in-laws got a female cat and she is all over my father in law like he’s made of sunshine. :b

Am I misremembering or did they cancel that category after her performance? I have a vague memory that breakdancing had only recently been accepted as a discipline and then she did that and they decided to remove the discipline again…? Might have been a fever hallucination after I saw her performance. Wishful thinking, probably.

Lord have mercy xD